I remember seeing this family photo after it was taken and cringing. I had a smile on my face but inside I wasn’t happy and I was thankful Phoebe’s head covered my stomach. I was overwhelmed, frustrated, resentful and unsure how to find the time to take care of myself. Before I had Austin I had been running but after having him I didn’t know how to juggle all the chaos.
Day after day I tried not to think about how unhappy I was but eventually I couldn’t take it anymore and I had to do something different. When Austin was almost one I decided it was time for me to put myself back on my priority list. It was time for me to love myself enough to find the time to change. I didn’t take a before picture because I was unhappy with my body. Looking back now I wish I would have taken one so I could see how far I’ve come.
It’s been a long journey, filled with a lot of ups and downs. I’ve had setbacks and injuries but I’ve had so many victories too. I’ve ran countless miles pushing a jogging stroller, done hours and hours of workout DVDs and the best part isn’t that I’m smaller or wear a different size. My victory is in that I’ve found me. I’ve found a passion to help others. I’ve found a career. But more importantly I’ve found that taking care of me helps me take care of others better.
Why do I share all of this?
Because I understand how it feels to be overwhelmed and unsure of where to start.
Because I know how it feels to be unhappy but stuck at the same time.
Because I know the fear of failure and lack of belief in myself.
Because I know that if I can change my life, so can you.
Because I know I can help you too.