Life doesn’t always go as planned. If you would have asked me 6 months ago what life looked like outside of the Air Force I wouldn’t have imagined it would be the way it is now. I had dreams of buying a home, getting my kids settled in a place that we wouldn’t have to move again. I just knew D would get a fantastic job and we’d be living the life of our dreams.
In reality it’s nothing like I had planned in my head and if I let myself, I can go to a dark place. When I think about where we are and how far away we are from my dreams I start to panic. I struggle everyday to remain positive about our future. The security that I love so much is gone and it scares me. We still need so many things to fall into place so our life can return to “normal”. Yet, despite all of my fears there is always a small glimmer of hope, a small light that I can still see and that keeps me going through each day.
I have big dreams for myself and my family. While it seems that things aren’t going in the direction I had hoped they would, I’m going to grasp onto that glimmer of hope. I know, with all of my heart, that I will achieve my big dreams. It might take me a while, but I will get there.
Every once in a while a song comes out that just speaks to my heart and I adopt it as my anthem. This song just hits me in my soul and I just have to share it with everyone.
“There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light, I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I might be down but I’m not dead
There’s better days still up ahead
Even after all I’ve seen
There’s hope in front of me”