I like to live a secure, stable, planned out life. I like routine and control. I like to follow a path that I’ve researched, planned out and know what my outcome will be before I’ve taken one step. I don’t like surprises and I don’t like unknown twists and turns.
We are currently living a life that is completely opposite of what I’m used to. Moving to Washington has turned our normal life upside down. We’ve been living in transition as my husband retires from the Air Force and I’m struggling with it daily. We don’t know what our future holds at all. Each day I wake up struggling to figure out how I can cope with all of the chaos.
My faith is being tested daily and I’m constantly praying for God to open doors for our family. We need so many things to fall together as we wait in the hallway. It’s a moment by moment test of my faith and and most days I fall apart at least once (sometimes more).
I feel like I’m going to collapse under the pressure at times but when those moments of overwhelming anxiety hit me I try to remember to be thankful for what we have. I don’t know what our future holds but I’m certain of who holds it. As I sit here waiting, I’m praising Him for all that I have. I have healthy and happy kids, who have made it through this transition better than I have. I have supportive friends and family who have encouraged me when I’ve needed it most. I know in my heart everything is going to come together in His time. I know that we are where we are supposed to be and that everything that I’m worried about will fall into place.